I have written the start to this post three times already. How do you start to say you have lost someone so close without it sounding morbid? you can't !
Mum passed away two weeks ago today. It has been a rollercoaster of emotions for myself and the family over those two weeks, we cannot even lay her to rest until the 29th april beacause of the easter break and the crematorium being fully booked, so i have come home to cornwall for a week just to unwind a little if possible, but it seems worse here not being with the girls!
Just had a phone call from the minister who will take the service so it brings everything back to reality again, seemed a very nice chap wonderful to talk to so that was some comfort.
Had to leave doing the post yesterday so i am trying again today. I think all the dreaded paperwork is now finished can't do anything else.
My one consolation is that mum died peacefully in her sleep in her own house and not in any pain, but it certainly does not ease the pain of her going she will be missed so much by us all.
The little routines you had when they were here like telephoning at a certain time, ringing to say we are home safe, did you see that great football match, silly things you would have said, i cannot believe i shan't be doing these things again.
Not sure if i want to be on my own or have people around me its such a strange emotional time at the moment, but i'm sure things will ease with time.
In times like these you know who you can rely on to always be there for you so all my love and thanks to my family and friends xx
THOUGHT OF THE DAY
Words are often inadequate to communicate all that we feel in our hearts
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